Watching Vader Burn


Like reading an old diary
while scrying with a black mirror
she looked both ways
trying to see her future's past

Could she really have been so full of hubris
thinking she escaped unscathed

Was she searching for excuses
the comfort of victimhood
Our Lady Of Intense Suffering

Or was it somewhere in the middle
through but not straight
in between but not equal

Cutting away the ego
without chipping away the truth

She's all there somewhere
the person she
could've
would've
should've
been with who she
was
is
and now
might be
should be
wants to be

Is she strong enough
is she sharp enough
to see what's behind without getting lost in the pages
to smash the reflection of maybe
and set goals with honest heavy lifting

What to set alight
What to fold and temper

Contemplations while watching Vader burn

February 28, 2023
Tressa Lee Breen
Day 7 of 100
Image from "Darth Vader Yule Log 8 Hours" on YouTube, used without permission, with no credit taken, no profit made, and no offense intended.

Big Bad Boon

 Kneel at my altar
hard as marble
shriek in the language of fire
& believe

Beg that big bad boon of me

Perhaps I'll create it
and consume you

October 27, 2023
Tressa Lee Breen
Day 6 of 100
Magnetic Poetry pull: &, Bad, Believe, Consume, Create, Fire, Kneel, Language, Marble, Me, Shriek.

Herself

 


Spells spoken in her ear
God's word carved in her soul
Fairy dust sparkling in her eyes

It's no wonder her heart couldn't speak
as she'd already been rendered
deaf, dumb, and blind

Never taught to think

Trained to obey

A woman's body with a child brain
a stunted emotional range
and a Disney view on romance

The ugly duckling
she'd open her heart and legs for anyone
believing attention meant he saw the swan inside
hoping for an open heart in return

There were of course
no Princes
only
empty Charming

As she rarely left her childhood home
which had transformed to her middle-aged dungeon
there were only a few
but it does not take many to empty someone
who didn't realize she wasn't whole

She woke herself up just after the half century mark

Time was most definitely not her friend

Her thoughts

Her love

Her humanity

So much work undone

So few days ahead

With her body beginning its inevitable change as midnight approached
energy must be focused and well spent

No prayers

No magic

No societal accepted nonsense

Just reality

The honest pain
in finding
in creating
the one thing too long left uncreated
buried under the planted poison beliefs that had strangled her
season over season

The one thing she should've been loving all along

Herself

February 26, 2023
Tressa Lee Breen
Day 5 of 100
Image of clock by Qilmy, used without permission, with no credit taken, no profit made, and no offense intended.

Tenebrosus

 

It is said that nothing is hidden in the light

I disagree

Too much fades 
invisible in the painful brightness as all colors become white

There is so much more in the darkness

You just have to work harder to see it

A casual glance will not do

Eyes open
literally and figuratively
and the shades and shadows that live in the luminance
reveal themselves
reveal all

When we want to find ourselves we go inward

There is no blacker darkness

We see all
we are
and are not
all we can be
and all we will never be

Tenebrosus gets the blame
(but not the shame)
when a person doesn't like what they see
in the pall of their soul

It is so much easier to be ignorant of oneself
when blinded by the light

October 25, 2023
Tressa Lee Breen
Day 4 of 100
Tenebrous, Latin root, means "darkness".
Image belongs to me.

Pain, Pearls and Happiness



I've got my pain like pearls hanging around my neck

I can hear them clack against one another
like pain is a competition
and the last one to crack
wins

I don't want to be a monster
the devil walking the earth
when not frozen on the throne of my hell
reliving the tears and track marks down my face
while my life continues to wave on by

Perhaps I should become the monster

Embrace the fight to break the freeze

And that's the fear that stops the flight

Right up to the door but can't walk through

Maybe the window is the way

Maybe my monster has wings

I clutch at my pain
and begin the long rip and tear
for release only comes with breaking
one pearl at a time

Scaring myself into happiness

February 24, 2023
Tressa Lee Breen
Day 3 of 100
#The100DayProject2023
 Image of unknown origin, used without permission, with no credit taken, no profit made, and no offense intended.

Let Us Prey

 

He felt peckish
so he hide his fur and claws
under a tuxedo and in dance shoes
and went out for a naughty evening

It never takes long to find a frolicking buffet

His food does love their rhythm

An entree with an unwanted side dish caught his eye

So he began to swirl and surround
insinuate and separate
until he was the only one at her table

He moved her outside
letting the night do the wooing

He stepped up to the moon
ready to rip out his bone china teeth
when he felt her fingers tangle through his fur
her claw slip round his throat
and as her fangs sunk into him
honor flavored his surprise and dread
for if it was his time to be the meal
at least it was to nourish someone
so full of grace

February 23, 2023
Tressa Lee Breen
Day 2 of 100
Magnetic Poetry pull: Dance, Evening, Food, He, Naughty, Peckish, Tangle, Through.
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He's Your Argyle

 

From the moment he picked you up
chatted you up
sitting not in front
but beside
he's been an engine in your life
moving you
taking suggestions
offering directions

He's hands on the wheel
never letting you go

Although there are moments
he seems distracted
he never fails to arrive
to care
and even when you think
he's going to drive you crazy
he drives you to sane
every time

You don't tip this one
with a smile, a hug, a tear, and goodbye

You hire this one
with your heart

February 22, 2023
Tressa Lee Breen
Day 1 of 100
#The100DayProject2023
Image from the movie "Die Hard" (1988), used without permission, with no credit taken, no profit made, and no offense intended.